The night of falling stars.

Meteor shower is just around the corner in Poland and it would certainly be a shame if I did not read it as a sign to restart writing posts on here again. It's the 13th of August 2013, a beautiful summer night, and I just cannot believe how much has changed since the first time I heard of Perseids. It just seems like the perfect time to truly investigate the phenomenon!

The ever-helpful wikipedia states that a meteoroid is a small rocky or metallic body travelling through space, which just sounds like the most incredible creation of the universe even despite the truncation of the definition. Apparently, the visible streak of light from space debris is the result of heat as it enters a planet's atmosphere, and the trail of glowing particles that it sheds in its wake is called a meteor, or colloquially a "shooting star" or "falling star". A series of many meteors appearing seconds or minutes apart, and appearing to originate from the same fixed point in the sky, is called a meteor shower. The most visible meteor shower in most years are the Perseids, which peak on 12 August of each year at over one meteor per minute. There even exists a tool to help you calculate the expected shower rate for a given date and a given location! NASA has certainly aided the process of trying to understand and experience the phenomenon in a deeper manner. What it hasn't thought though is that I am very sceptical about updating my plugins without any specialist's supervision, which alas unabled me to use the applet. I don't know if I should be angry with them or with my conservative computer approach tendency. Oh well, I'll certainly cope without it! Because regardless of how exciting measuring the meteor shower rate might get, the night of falling stars is not at all about repeated calculations and plain numbers. 

It's mostly about taking the people you care for outside and celebrating the wonders of life, universe and everything. And although the answer to all of our problems is 42, let's not forget how well we, the people, have been doing here on earth as the already fallen meteors. 

This is a message to all of the stars out there! I hope you have an amazing evening, looking at the sky and wishing for your life to always stay just as perfect as it is in that very moment. And remember not to worry about anything!

Specifically don't worry about the most confusing and incomprehensible set of regulations on earth: British students' policies. It's not worth it. 

We'll see how it goes 

xx

You gotta fight for your right TO PARTY

The two incredibly important things you definitely need to find out about today are, as follows:

1.If you had 6.02x10^23 marshmallows and piled them up on the territory of the USA you would most likely work your way up almost halfway to the moon. 

2. My friend Kasia is so unbelievably hot you would not believe it. Contact her at +48 6456 24t6y35566. But not really.

And yes, I did do her hair!

I really don't want to idly chatter about what workload I have to deal with right now. To cut a long story short: driving exam + IB exams + hairdressing exams all due in three weeks starting the 2nd of May, which I suppose is a good excuse for me not having posted anything in a while.

All is well though, my life has been gradually working up towards that moment, so I'm convinced I'm prepared to face it! Game on.

Oh, and if you haven't seen the last Glee episode, go see it now! It's amazing!

We'll see how it goes.
xxx

Focus!

Each and every one of us faces difficult or stressful situations everyday. Naturally, some of the challenges life has in its stock for us are more important than others, which is why we need to do all that we can to be up to them.

Unfortunately, sometimes we fail which is something that happened to me yesterday. To cut a long story short, I failed my driving license test. Again. Needless to say, I felt horrible. Especially that I failed because of a stupid mistake I had never previously done and thought I would never commit. I reckon I just felt too confident. Oh well.

The reason I'm writing about it though is that as much as this situation sucks, I strongly believe I can learn from it. Let me explain.

I have had two driving exams so far, both of which I failed. The first time I did that I remember having been sitting in the waiting area all stressed and unable to formulate a single rational thought. I made a stupid mistake when driving in the city and I failed as I was coming back to the driving examination office (gutted).The second time I did it, that is yesterday, I decided to go out of the waiting area where the atmosphere among the people waiting for their exam was as if they were attending a funeral and move to the smoking area when people were laughing and talking with each other. As I smoked my cigarette I talked with lots of people, exchanging experiences with driving exams and agreeing on how horrible Polish regulations regarding that are. When I now think about it, I basically chilled out. The atmosphere was really relaxing which at the time I though was good. When someone called for me, I went to have my exam. I showed all the parts of the car I was told to, I sat in the car and the first thing I did was commiting a mistake I had never committed before. My leg was shaking so badly on the clutch that I couldn't control it. Fucking hell.

If I couldn't possibly find anything good in it though, it would probably undermine all that I believe in and I would disappear in the puff of logic. Thus what I think I learnt from that is that each and every person needs to focus before an important examination or event in their lifes, only that different people do it in various way. I reckon I now know how to do it myself to maximise my efficiency and not be subject to stress that's destroying chances for success. I cannot just give in to the stress that's trying to penetrate every single cell in my body, but in the same time I cannot just not think about it and chill out. I definitely need time before the important event in question. I need time for myself, when I can go through all that I need to know, I need to focus on what I am about to do. Otherwise I'll just end up finally getting that one chance to prove that I possess a certain skill and due to not having given it a thought before the stress will fall on me and prevent me from doing anything. If that makes sense. 

I'll keep that in mind the next time I'm doing an examination of any kind. For now I have long hours of waiting in a queue to sign up for another driving test and a whole month or two to wait for it. All I feel like repeating now is: Fucking hell. I hate Polish driving examination offices. 

On a brighter note, Easter is around the corner! April is truly a month of exciting things to look forward to! Including Look and Beuty&Vision international Forum in Poznań. Additionally, I managed to sew an XVIII century style cowl to my skirt AND make a t-shirt with my cross stitched work on it!

I hope you're having a lovely and exciting day :) xx

We'll see how it goes. 

By the way, this one's for you, you troublesome driving license!
One way or another, I'm gonna get you!

A quick update!

I am so tired. Good music and the feeling of doing things of actual value are keeping me alive.
Here's just a quick update of what I have been up to, in case you are interested :)

 Hairdressing! Lots of it too...

http://beautyvision.mtp.pl/en/

 Finding use for every single thing that I possess.

 Magic stars eating rage.

 

Cross-stiching, sewing, crocheting

Planning out my future. 

AND LOTS OF SCHOOLWORK. It's true I've gone through all of the internally assessed assignments, but I still have the big exams coming up in May. 

Needless to say, I do not feel prepared. At all. 

We'll see how it goes.

Oh, one more thing. I've also been watching 'The secret diaries of a call girl' with Billie Piper and reading 'The pub lanlord's book of British common sense' by Al Murray. I'd recommend both :)

Weight

A lot has been said about dieting, that is restricting your food intake, about the pursue of girls around the globe to look the best then can (the thinnest they can), as well as about the diseases connected with that acting with accordance to that scheme. 

I have never been personally interested in none of the aforementioned. I do not want to sound as if I never felt the pressure to look good, to be thin and never eat anything that could potentially make me fatter. I reckon everyone goes through that phase sooner or later in their lifes. The fact is though that I have gone through it quite smoothly and without any disorders, be it mental or physical ones.

However due to the most recent events in which I was told to put on weight, I was forced to think about the problem. As I said, I have never really cared what I ate. As long as I wasn't completely full or dying of starvation I was happily eating whatever I fancied. It turns out it was too little. 

The background of the story is that recently I have caught a couple of subsequent colds, as well as was generally physically weak and undergoing weird immune system failure(ish?) things. 

I was told to put on weight, which is completely logical considering my BMI is on the verge of being out of the 'healthy scale'. Thinking about it now, this was exactly the moment when instead of thinking 'sure thing, two pounds more or less doesn't make a difference' I thought 'girl, that is ridiculous, who do you think I am to put on weight and get fat?'. 

All my life I believed I am better than that. That since I've always frowned upon the whole 'get thinner get better' scheme, I will not have a problem with the idea of putting on weight.

Needless to say, I will do it. There's no debating over it and I am not at all against the idea of eating more. I'm just a bit frightened with my automatic response to the idea. How many more aspects of my life am I a hypocrite about?

Hope you're all having an amazing day x

We'll see how it goes.

What's up with the movies?

I have indulged myself in watching Ray today and the only thing I can say about that is: WATCH IT! It's an amazing movie filled with so many incredibly talented actors carrying off their parts perfectly well. Additionally, it's also based on a marvellously crafted script, where Ray's powerful songs are quite fantastically incorporated into the plot of the movie.

What I want to write about though is that I cannot really understand how the movies have changed over the years. And no, I do not wish to discuss commercialism, neither do I want to imply that nowadays movies are better or worse than they were a couple of years ago. I have possibly misled you in my statement and I do apologise.

What I meant is that my perception of the movies I'm watching has changed quite a lot recently. It's something I could not grasp the concept of when I firstly started thinking about it.I'm sure now though.

I remember that as if it was yesterday. A couple of years ago, I would go to the cinema or watch a movie at home to enter a whole new, fascinating and unknown world. I held on tightly to the fantasy world created by the people involved in the film making process. I remember having been able to spot every single incredible detail in the movie that would in some way be detached from reality. 'Wow, he can fly! On a dragon! Carrying a sword, trying to get into a castle and save the princess!' I thought. 'I can now go home and while smoking my lungs out dream about how amazing it would be to be that princess'. Needless to say, I never actually thought I could become one. I was happy and excited about the mere notion of imagining things that are not real. Since they can never happen, why would I not want to create an imaginary world full of the fantastically unreal things I saw in the movies earlier? Why wouldn't I?

Having watched Ray made me realised how that changed. Alas, I have not been able to watch many movies recently, apart from carrying out an occasionall Bollywood marathon. What I noticed though is that now I am looking at movies from a different perspective. I reckon it's a matter of asking different questions. 'What is it I can suck out of the content of the movie that does not exist in the real world?' as in opposing to 'What is it that is actually real in the movie I'm currently watching?'.

On the contrary to what you might think though, I do not find movies more boring, nor in any way dull. If anything, I get more excited thant ever when I get a chance to see one. But that thought still lingers on in my mind: I ceased to notice the fantastical details in the movie. I now know that there is more to it than that. 

For whatever it is I am watching, be it 'Ray' or 'Twilight', there are always some things that remain to be true in the real world. Simple human behaviours, mechanisms of action. Taking Twilight as the easiest example, we all know vampires do not exist (or do they?). But wouldn't a girl be devastated like Bella if a boy like Edward left her? Wouldn't a family always stick together, even if some metaphorical Volturi clan threatened one of its members? 

Don't judge me for using the example of Twilight. I sat an English test on comprehensive reading today. The article given was on Twilight. It's sort of stuck in my head today.

HA I FOUND THE ARTICLE!

The sight of stuffy, bespectacled greying men berating films aimed primarily at teenage girls is as farcical as it is depressing. While I would probably argue with Mark's opinion, at least I know that berating means criticising. I got that one right :)

It's 2013 everyone!
Hope you have a good one x

We'll see how it goes.